Showing posts with label Mood. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mood. Show all posts

Sunday, February 06, 2011

A Girl's Desire - Taken from I love Islam

| DAHLIA | EDITOR: CINCAUGORENG

Sometimes,
I want to open my hijab,
and show the world,
that I too,
am beautiful in the people's definition.

But,
deep down here,
in my little heart,
I know that beauty is by definition,
a mystery.
and it is forever more rewarding,
to be beautiful in God's eyes.

Sometimes,
I want to wear ruffled dresses and tight jeans,
show off what I really look like,
under those baggy shirts and loosely fitted pants,
make a statement,
that I too,
have a figure and worth looking at.

But,
I know better,
to avoid entering the world of men's imagination,
for I love my future husband,
and I am ashamed,
what should be his, has already been unveiled by others.

Sometimes,
I want to show the world,
the other side of me,
the bubblier, bolder, and crazier me.
put myself on display,
for everyone to see,
to be desired, and admired upon.

But,
I know that eyes are not just eyes,
seeing is not just seeing,
image and respect are gained,
shame and humility deserve a better place,

Because in the end,
it is not just about me,
I carry a lot of impressions and expectations,
of what a Muslim girl should be,

I am covered by the word "Islam" the moment I walk out of my door,
So don't be selfish girl,

Can't you put behind your heart's desire for something worth fighting for?

Love is all it takes.

Insya Allah..

Regards,

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Pray





(Courtesy of Fatma Muslima & not forgetting, Alhabib, from which I found this poem :) Syukran Jasil).

I knelt to pray but not for long,
I had too much to do.
I had to hurry and get to work
For bills would soon be due.
So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.
My Muslim duty was now done
My soul could rest at ease.
All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer.
No time to speak of Allah to friends,
They’d laugh at me I’d fear.
No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry,
No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die.
I went before the Lord,
I came, I stood with downcast eyes.
For in his hands God held a book;
It was the book of life.
God looked into his book and said
Your name I cannot find.
I once was going to write it down…
But never found the time.


Love,

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Ideas for Your Wedding Hairdo















Regards,


Nothing Compares To You. Sinead O’Connor
Close To You. Maxi Priest
Power of Love. Jennifer Rush
I Can’t Help Falling in Love with You. Elvis Presley
Just the Way You Are. Billy Joel
When You Say Nothing At All. Ronan Keating
From This Moment On. Shania Twain
You Made Me Love You. Al Jolson
How Deep Is Your Love. Bee Gees
Thank You. Dido
All the Way. Frank Sinatra
Unbroken. Tim McGraw
Summer Wind. Frank Sinatra
Fallen. Lauren Wood (Pretty Woman Sndtrk)
Pictures. Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow
Be our Guest. Beauty and the Beast soundtrack
Shower me with your love. Surface
The Wedding Song. Bob Dylan
Underneath it All. No Doubt
Angel In Disguise. Brandy
Eternal flame. Bangles
Sweet Happy Life. Peggy lee
I would walk 500 miles. Proclaimers
Heaven. Bryan Adams
At Last. Etta James
From This Moment. Shania Twain
Trumpet Voluntary. Clarke
Heaven. DJ Sammy
Only Time. Enya
All My Life. KC and JOJO
Wedding March/Marriage of Figaro. Mozart
Come Away With Me. Norah Jones
The Prayer. Charlotte Church and Josh Groban
Angels Brought Me Here. Guy Sebastian
Because you Loved me. Celine Dion
Me and You. Kenny Chesney
Forever. Jaheim
Storybook Love (Theme from Princess Bride). Mark Knopfler
Butterfly Kisses. Bob Carlisle
Aerosmith - I Don't Want to Miss a Thing
Air Supply - Now and Forever
Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You
Andrea Bocelli - The Prayer (Featuring: Celine Dion)
Aretha Franklin - So Damn Happy
Babyface - You are so Beautiful
Beatles - All You Need Is Love
Billy Idol - White Wedding
Bing Crosby - True Love
Celine Dion - Ave Maria
Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On (from Titanic)
Celine Dion - The Power of Love
Celine Dion - When I Fall in Love (Featuring: Clive Griffen)
Clay Aiken - The Way
Clay Aiken - This Is the Night


Regards,

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Love



A month and 13 days. Seems like it was just yesterday. It's so surreal. Every conversation, facial expression, and her voice.. is crystal clear.

God I miss her badly.

Her favourite food, her cooking, her clothes, the socks from the hospital that she last wore and I never ever would want to wash it cos it still smelt of her..the videos in my phone, thumb drive where I disturbed her in the living room and watch her 'melatar'.. the ringing of the phone that is now pronounced dead.. she used to call me almost everyday..

I've lost a great listener.. companion.. I've lost half of my 'jiwa'.. It feels so empty at times.. No one can ever replace her in my Life.

Someone who took me when no one else would. Someone who provided me shelter almost throughout my life.. Someone who washed my clothes when I was still in school.. Cooked for me with her delicious meal.. shared my sorrow and happiness.. shared the same bed as me.. God.. this is so painful!

I have not done enough for her..

She didn't live to see my wedding.. something she has been asking and wanting to witness as far as I know..

I love her.. love her so much.. It hurts.. it feels like someone is carving a hole in my heart.. My head is throbbing..

I know she went.. knowing I will be well taken care of by the man who will be sharing my life in a matter of 33 days..

Saya sayang nenek.. teramatlah sangat.. Moga nenek bahagia disana.. Bebas dari segala seksa akhirat/kubur.. Kasihanilah nenekanda hamba Ya Allah! Tempatkan beliau dikalangan umatmu yg beriman.....


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Friday, August 13, 2010

The Hospital



It's been a week since I stepped in to work.. Some may question my absence. But to me, my granny's condition is far more important than my work. "Kerja boleh dicari, but my nenek, she's the one and only..tiada peganti."

Whilst in hospital, macam2 pengalaman dapat saya raih. Suatu pengalaman luar biasa. Nak kata family gathering pun ada..I get to see my aunt and uncle almost everyday as we take turn macam shift gitu to tend to my granny's needs.

I get to see new patients coming in as the recovered ones make their way home when they are discharged. Boleh dikatakan semua ahli keluarga pesakit is so darn friendly, macam kita semua dah kenal lama. Especially the daughter of the lady in bed 7. I suka tengok everytime the Philippino caretaker comes to take over a family member of the patient in bed 7. Dia punya kasih sayang terhadap madame dia tu ya ampun, sungguh mencuit hati. In fact I rasa semua ahli keluarga nenek di bed 7 tu begitu menyayangi nenek tu. Can still remember the words " Nayang! Apa kabar nenek hari ini"! playing in my ears.. Hahaha! I think the nenek is about 90+ years old. Start dari this experience, I asyik usik my nenek with the same layanan that the family potrayed while we were at the ward. Senyuman yang ku nanti nantikan dari my nenek terukir jua.. Happy rasa hati kecilku ini.. Apa kan tidak, the last few days have been an emotional ride for me, seeing the condition that my nenek was in. And yes, the Philippino caretaker can speak Malay so fluently that we almost thought she was a Malay or at least, an Indonesian.

I'm glad my family members semua united gitu jaga nenek semasa nenek sakit. Semua turun gelenggang.



Cuma satu kesedihan yang masih terselit di hati ini. There's this patient next to my nenek's bed. Whilst I was there for almost throughout the day, no one came to visit her. Once a lady came on National day and that was it. This nenek pun dalam linkungan 90 lebih. She would be lying down dalam separuh duduk and termenung. Termenung looking towards bed 7. I feel like I can understand what she is feeling. A sense of loneliness. My nenek's bed is always surrounded by us. Where else hers, it's either the nurse or the maid next to her bed who is caring for her madame. This maid is also a nice lady. She is always assisting this nenek every now and then.

Dimana ahli keluarganya? Anak anaknya?

Sekali nenek ni asked me whilst I was making small talks with her "Bila nak habis ni?". I speechless sekejap. She was referring to when she will be discharged. Not even once did I dare to ask her how many children she had or where they are. Seems like a sensitive question especially in this kind of circumstances. Up till now, terbayang2 raut wajah nenek yang cute ni. Still rememembered when the nurse kept on feeding her though she already made it clear she was full already. At last she screamed "Ahhhh!" baru the nurse stop. And we all terkekek2 ketawa. I can say telatah nenek ni somehow accompanied my nenek when we left for the day.

And bila kita nak balik, she ask "Bila jumpa lagi?

Haiz.. kesian nenek ni.. :..(

P.s: Kepada anak2 sekalian, tolonglah, walau jahat baik mana pun ibu bapa kita, biar sahaja Allah Taala yang membalasnya. Tanpa mereka, tiadalah kita di dunia ni. Jagalah orang tua kita bagai menatang minyak yang penuh, seperti mana susahnya mereka membesarkan kita sewaktu kita kecil hingga lah dewasa.

Ikhlas dari sanubari ini,

Friday, July 30, 2010

Bertuahnya Aku dilahirkan seorang Wanita!

Assalamualaikum..
The above caption may sound funny to some of you..

Entah tiba-tiba datang ilham nak menulis mengenai peranan dan ganjaran menjadi seorang wanita.. Yang saya maksudkan bukanlah mengenai wanita "common" tetapi seorang wanita yang bergelar "muslimah".

Once, I complained about the injustice of being a girl; we have to go through the monthly cycle whereby our body at times react in a weird manner. Bukit bukau di muka sana sini, mood yang asyik nak marah tak tentu pasal, dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Hanya seorang wanita balil sahaja yang akan mengerti bagaimana perasaan dan keadaan ketika sedang mengalami "nya". R-I-M-A-S!

To think about giving birth.. Masya Allah! Sungguh mengerikan!

Ada pulak spekulasi orang-orang kafir ni yang sibuk mengutuk Islam sebagai agama yang tidak memberi hak kepada kaum wanitanya. Macam saya nak kata dengan mereka-mereka ni: "Korang jangan macam paham eh".

Tak selidik betul-betul, pandai-pandai buat andaian. Kaji dulu dalam-dalam mengenai Islam, baru hangpa boleh beri comment yang munasabah.. Peace!

Kepada kaum muslimah yang pernah complain "Kenapa aku dilahirkan dalam dunia ni as a female?", toksah merungut lagi.

Wanita adalah insan yang paling beruntung sekali. Kenapa? Hehehhe..

Even though kita paling senang nak masuk syurga compared to kaum Adam, tetapi bilangan kaum Hawa lah yang paling banyak menghuni neraka. Itu sudah well known. Tak boleh dinafikan lagi.

Allah memberi ganjaran pahala yang besar dengan amalan yang sedikit dan tanggung jawab yang ringan.

Kelebihan di sudut Ibadah
Kita tidak dibebankan dengan ibadah - ibadah yang banyak dan berat - berat.
Dengan hanya melaksanakan 4 rukun Islam that is, Bersembahyang 5 waktu, Puasa, Menjaga maruah dan mentaati suami --> Allah menjamin mereka layak masuk syurga and not only that, mereka bebas untuk pilih masuk melalui mana - mana pintu syurga yang mereka suka.

Kenapa saya tulis seperti diatas sahaja requirement nya? And why didn't I include sembahyang sunat, puasa sunat, as well as zakat and haji? Because perkara tersebut tidak ditekankan.

Some little things we do I'm pretty sure kita tidak tahu perkara yang kita lakukan itu sebenarnya mendatangkan pahala.

Di antaranya Rasulullah SAW bersabda, maksudnya;

"Mana - mana wanita yang tinggal di rumah bersama - sama (mendidik dan mengurus) anak - anaknya, di akhirat nanti ia akan tinggal bersama - sama aku di dalam syurga."

"Setiap wanita yang berair matanya lantaran pedih kerana memotong bawang untuk dijadikan bahan masakan kepada ahli rumahnya, maka Allah akan membalas pahala sebanyak pahala orang yang menangis kerana takutkan Allah."

"Mana - mana wanita yang redha mengandung bayi hasil perhubungan dengan suaminya dan suaminya pula redha dengannya, maka Allah akan memberi ganjaran pahala sebagaimana puasa (sunat) fi sabilillah kaum lelaki."

"Jika mereka berasa sakit ketika ia melahirkan anak, maka Allah tambahkan lagi pahala yang tidak terkira (kerana terlalu banyaknya)."

"Allah mencatatkan lagi pahala kepadanya seimbang dengan pahala lelaki yang berjihad fi sabilillah.

"Apabila ia melahirkan anak, Allah gugurkan pula segala dosanya dan jadilah ia bersih daripada dosa sepertimana ia sewaktu bayi dahulu (ketika ia baru dilahirkan ibunya)."

"Apabila ia melahirkan anak dan meyusukan anaknya dengan susunya semdiri, maka setiap teguk susu (yang diminum anaknya) Allah balas dengan satu kebajikan."

"Bila ia semalaman tidak tidur kerana menjaga anaknya (yang sekejap - sekejap terjaga, menangis lantaran kelaparan, sakit, etc) maka Allah beri dan tambah lagi pahala sama seperti membebas 70 orang hamba dengan ikhlas."

Banyak sungguh ganjaran yang diberi Allah terhadap hambanya yang lemah. Demikianlah ehsan dan kasih sayang serta keadilan Allah dan Rasullulah SAW terhadap kaum wanita.
Tempat dan kedudukan wanita di dunia, of course ada keadaan tertentu berbeza dengan kaum Adam. But this is never because of discrimination, tetapi demi meraikan watak, sifat dan kemampuan mereka terhadap sesuatu. Allah lakukan semua itu adalah kerana kasih sayang Allah kepada kaum wanita dan untuk menyelamatkan mereka di dunia dan khususnya di akhirat.

Kalau nak ikutkan hati saya rasa macam nak go on.. But ada tugas yang harus saya laksanakan.

Seandainya ada perkara perkara berguna yang saya raih, insya Allah akan saya menulis lagi untuk tatapan dan pengetahuan yang anda sudah atau pun belum tahu.

P.S: Kekadang bila lihat keadaan sekeliling saya, timbul rasa sedih di hati kecil ini, tapi saya selalu teringatkan pesan teman akrab saya si ehem ehem: Jangan pandang rendah terhadap orang lain kerana yang penting adalah bagaimana keadaan seseorang itu di akhirnya, and not what you are seeing now.. Keadaan dia di saat menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya bahkan boleh jadi, lebih mulia dari kita - kita ni. Betul jugak. Kita ni kekadang rasa kita ni lebih baik, timbul pula rasa riak. Walhal orang yang bergelar alim itu adalah orang yang tidak kenal erti sombong. Orang yang baru dia bertemu tetapi layannya terhadap orang baru itu seakan - akan sudah lama dia kenal. Alangkah indahnya dunia ini jika kita seperti golongan ini?

Yang
Ikhlas,

Monday, June 21, 2010

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Tak perlu merayu
Dengan pujukanmu
Biarkanlah saja semuanya pergi

Cukuplah sekali
Kau menghiris hati
Menghancurkan kasih
Yang telah lama terbina

Seandainya masih
Ada cinta lagi
Lupakan oh sayang
Hasrat dan perasaanmu

Kini hanya duka
Bersulamkan pasrah
Titis airmata
Tak lagi bererti

Namun di hatiku
Terukir namamu
Menjadi memori
Kekalnya abadi


Regards,

Sunday, May 02, 2010

Renungan

Assalamualaikum tuan tuan dan puan puan :)

Dah lama chek tak menulis posting.. bukan aper, semenjak ada phone idaman chek ni, jarang benar chek nak online pake computer.. bukan aper, males eh. Nak tunggu depa loading, nak pasang plug jadi battery tak flat.. Sekarang kalo nak check apa apa saya pake hp je la.. lebih ringkas dan tak pakai banyak sangat karen..

La ni lagi sebulan lebih genap 24 tahun chek bernafas di muka bumi Allah. Insya Allah akhir tahun ni berakhir la zaman bujang chek. Semenjak dua menjak ni, terlahir seribu macam rasa dalam hati ni. Rasa sedih, rasa gembira, rasa syukur dan rasa insaf... Tak lama lagi chek da nak bina masjid. Chek akan ada pasangan hidup. Ada tanggung jawab baru. Dan jika dikurniakan cahaya mata, another new responsibility untuk dipikul that is to raise anak chek. Bagaimana chek nak didik mereka. Macam macam perkara berputar dalam otak ni.

Banyak lagi perintahNya yang belum dilaksanakan. Kadang kadang tu, walau takde masalah, tapi hati ni selalu rasa berat. Ibarat dihimpit pelbagai masalah dunia. Termenung tu dah lazim ngan diri ni. Suka nah da macam hobby. Alhamdulillah, kebelakangan ni keadaan mula berubah. Chek mahu perubahan ini berkekalan. Kerana dulu, pernah chek cuba berubah namun ia bertahan buat sementara sahaja.

Malu chek. Malu bukan terhadap manusia. Tetapi malu denganNya. Janji pada manusia mau tak mau harus kita kotakan. Tetapi janji padaNya, dimungkir. Kerana tidak "bersemuka" denganNya? Maka berani lah kita membuatnya.

Pabila melawat orang meninggal, sukar untuk membayangkan umpama kita yang menghadapi maut. Terlalu banyak dosa dah diperbuat. Belum sempat bertaubat. Maut tidak mengenal usia. Chek belum bersedia untuk menyahut seruan Illahi..

Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi

Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla, walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii, fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi

Tuhanku aku tidak layak
untuk syurgaMu
tetapi aku tidak pula
sanggup menanggung
seksa nerakaMu,
dari itu kurniakanlah
ampunan kepadaku,
ampunkanlah dosaku,
sesungguhnya Engkaulah pengampun
dosa-dosa besar........

Tuhanku aku tidak layak
untuk syurgaMu
tetapi aku tidak pula
sanggup menanggung
seksa nerakaMu,
dari itu kurniakanlah
ampunan kepadaku,
ampunkanlah dosaku,
sesungguhnya Engkaulah pengampun
dosa-dosa besar........


Pada saudara saudari sekian, marilah kita renungkan kembali perjalanan hidup kita. Yang lepas, biarlah lepas. Yang buruk, usahlah direpeat. Jadikan ihtibar. Let's move on towards masa hadapan. Dosa yang dilakukan pada masa silam tetap dicatat. Marilah kita bertaubat, minta kemaafan dariNya. Sesungguhnya Dia Maha Pengasih, lagi Maha Pengampun. Allah huakhbar.

Ikhlas,

Thursday, February 04, 2010

Selamat Pagi Everyone!



Hari ini, ntah rasa macam lain gitu. Pagi ni rasa lebih lively. Ada oomph. Mungkin pasal papa hantar pi keje kot. Penat chek tiap tiap hari dari Isnin sampai la Jumaat dok nak pi kejo asyik kene naik bukit je.. Benci nye aper, badan masih tak turun turun walau kaki ni dah sepuluh kali turun naik bukit. And another contributing factor, nak jumpa bakal mak mentua malam ni..muehehehehe..

Apo sayer nak beli tuk dia ye sebagai buah tangan? Maybe a chocolate cake perhaps? Nanti la chek pi singgah kedai pastry lepas kejo nanti.

Kepada yg sudi membaca posting saya sekarang ni, SELAMAT PAGI! dan jangan lupa untuk mulakan hari anda dengan senyuman :) Tak mahal beb. Dan tak merugikan langsung.