Regards,

Da Lama Tak Menulis..

Assalamualaikum ;)

Came across a blog, by a blogger yang bertapis ketika bercakap.. Kagum saya dengan tulisannya.. And I came across this, "Orang yang suka bersangka baik dengan orang lain dicintai Allah."

- Doakanlah yang baik-baik sesama saudara kita, insya Allah, malaikat di langit mendoakan kebaikan kepada kita sebagaimana doa yang baik kita pohonkan untuk saudara kita. Ummu Abbas. -

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Ikhlas,

Pray

(Courtesy of Fatma Muslima & not forgetting, Alhabib, from which I found this poem :) Syukran Jasil).

I knelt to pray but not for long,
I had too much to do.
I had to hurry and get to work
For bills would soon be due.
So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.
My Muslim duty was now done
My soul could rest at ease.
All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer.
No time to speak of Allah to friends,
They’d laugh at me I’d fear.
No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry,
No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die.
I went before the Lord,
I came, I stood with downcast eyes.
For in his hands God held a book;
It was the book of life.
God looked into his book and said
Your name I cannot find.
I once was going to write it down…
But never found the time.

Love,

Love

A month and 13 days. Seems like it was just yesterday. It's so surreal. Every conversation, facial expression, and her voice.. is crystal clear.

God I miss her badly.

Her favourite food, her cooking, her clothes, the socks from the hospital that she last wore and I never ever would want to wash it cos it still smelt of her..the videos in my phone, thumb drive where I disturbed her in the living room and watch her 'melatar'.. the ringing of the phone that is now pronounced dead.. she used to call me almost everyday..

I've lost a great listener.. companion.. I've lost half of my 'jiwa'.. It feels so empty at times.. No one can ever replace her in my Life.

Someone who took me when no one else would. Someone who provided me shelter almost throughout my life.. Someone who washed my clothes when I was still in school.. Cooked for me with her delicious meal.. shared my sorrow and happiness.. shared the same bed as me.. God.. this is so painful!

I have not done enough for her..

She didn't live to see my wedding.. something she has been asking and wanting to witness as far as I know..

I love her.. love her so much.. It hurts.. it feels like someone is carving a hole in my heart.. My head is throbbing..

I know she went.. knowing I will be well taken care of by the man who will be sharing my life in a matter of 33 days..

Saya sayang nenek.. teramatlah sangat.. Moga nenek bahagia disana.. Bebas dari segala seksa akhirat/kubur.. Kasihanilah nenekanda hamba Ya Allah! Tempatkan beliau dikalangan umatmu yg beriman.....


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The Hospital

It's been a week since I stepped in to work.. Some may question my absence. But to me, my granny's condition is far more important than my work. "Kerja boleh dicari, but my nenek, she's the one and only..tiada peganti."

Whilst in hospital, macam2 pengalaman dapat saya raih. Suatu pengalaman luar biasa. Nak kata family gathering pun ada..I get to see my aunt and uncle almost everyday as we take turn macam shift gitu to tend to my granny's needs.

I get to see new patients coming in as the recovered ones make their way home when they are discharged. Boleh dikatakan semua ahli keluarga pesakit is so darn friendly, macam kita semua dah kenal lama. Especially the daughter of the lady in bed 7. I suka tengok everytime the Philippino caretaker comes to take over a family member of the patient in bed 7. Dia punya kasih sayang terhadap madame dia tu ya ampun, sungguh mencuit hati. In fact I rasa semua ahli keluarga nenek di bed 7 tu begitu menyayangi nenek tu. Can still remember the words " Nayang! Apa kabar nenek hari ini"! playing in my ears.. Hahaha! I think the nenek is about 90+ years old. Start dari this experience, I asyik usik my nenek with the same layanan that the family potrayed while we were at the ward. Senyuman yang ku nanti nantikan dari my nenek terukir jua.. Happy rasa hati kecilku ini.. Apa kan tidak, the last few days have been an emotional ride for me, seeing the condition that my nenek was in. And yes, the Philippino caretaker can speak Malay so fluently that we almost thought she was a Malay or at least, an Indonesian.

I'm glad my family members semua united gitu jaga nenek semasa nenek sakit. Semua turun gelenggang.



Cuma satu kesedihan yang masih terselit di hati ini. There's this patient next to my nenek's bed. Whilst I was there for almost throughout the day, no one came to visit her. Once a lady came on National day and that was it. This nenek pun dalam linkungan 90 lebih. She would be lying down dalam separuh duduk and termenung. Termenung looking towards bed 7. I feel like I can understand what she is feeling. A sense of loneliness. My nenek's bed is always surrounded by us. Where else hers, it's either the nurse or the maid next to her bed who is caring for her madame. This maid is also a nice lady. She is always assisting this nenek every now and then.

Dimana ahli keluarganya? Anak anaknya?

Sekali nenek ni asked me whilst I was making small talks with her "Bila nak habis ni?". I speechless sekejap. She was referring to when she will be discharged. Not even once did I dare to ask her how many children she had or where they are. Seems like a sensitive question especially in this kind of circumstances. Up till now, terbayang2 raut wajah nenek yang cute ni. Still rememembered when the nurse kept on feeding her though she already made it clear she was full already. At last she screamed "Ahhhh!" baru the nurse stop. And we all terkekek2 ketawa. I can say telatah nenek ni somehow accompanied my nenek when we left for the day.

And bila kita nak balik, she ask "Bila jumpa lagi?

Haiz.. kesian nenek ni.. :..(

P.s: Kepada anak2 sekalian, tolonglah, walau jahat baik mana pun ibu bapa kita, biar sahaja Allah Taala yang membalasnya. Tanpa mereka, tiadalah kita di dunia ni. Jagalah orang tua kita bagai menatang minyak yang penuh, seperti mana susahnya mereka membesarkan kita sewaktu kita kecil hingga lah dewasa.

Ikhlas dari sanubari ini,

Regards,

Tak perlu merayu
Dengan pujukanmu
Biarkanlah saja semuanya pergi

Cukuplah sekali
Kau menghiris hati
Menghancurkan kasih
Yang telah lama terbina

Seandainya masih
Ada cinta lagi
Lupakan oh sayang
Hasrat dan perasaanmu

Kini hanya duka
Bersulamkan pasrah
Titis airmata
Tak lagi bererti

Namun di hatiku
Terukir namamu
Menjadi memori
Kekalnya abadi

Regards,

Dreams are Just Dreams.. No harm dreaming..

Regards,

Tunggu nye tunggu, si "2 Alam" ni tak kluar kluar.. Mulanya lewat April. Sat lagi bulan Mei.. Tunggu lagi bulan Jun.. La ni katanya September pulak! Ish ish ish.. masalah apo gaknye mreka ngah facing sampe dok tangguh..

2 Alam takde, Lagenda Budak Setan pon jadi la.. Bagui citer dia..sapa yang blom tengok lagi, saya suggest pi la tengok.. melalak saya dibuatnya di pawagam..sedih benor.. Yang cekik darah ending dia.. ngah perasaan pat summit, ending bikin saya jatuh tergolek dari gunung Ledang.. abesnye gitu je.. siap ada Part One lagi! Maknye kene nantikan bahagian dua la ni..

Watak Que hidup abes! Saya rasa kesian pulak kat Lisa tu..macam real betol dia kene belasah..

Apa apa pon, I give this show 4 out of 5 popcorn!



Regards,