Tonight..

Night prayers.. A blanket and a pillow from a birthday gift.. A bolster which was Hand sown by nenek.. And my never ending tears are the company I had to bed tonight.. Nenek saya rindu nenek.. Smoga Allah Taala mengkabulkan doa saya ye nenek. I want my old nenek again.. I love u nenek.. Hamba yang amat sedih,

Jangan Diucap Selamat Tinggal.. Kepadaku...

Here I am.. Writing my thoughts away.. The last few days when I saw her, it somehow brought a light to my face. She looks like she is getting better. But what I saw just a moment ago upon stepping foot to Ward 42, dimmed the light which I had the other time. What had happened? Her tummy is swollen like a 9mths pregnant lady.. Her legs are both swollen and cold when touched. Yet she murmured that she doesn't need the blanket for now as she is feeling hot.. Masya Allah.. Sungguh hatiku Bagai dihiris pabila melihat keadaannya begini. Ya Allah! Sesungguhnya Kau Maha mendengar, Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang.. Pulihkan dia seperti sediakala.. Sungguh Engkau Mengetahui apa yang tidak Kami ketahui.. Kepadamu ku memohon.. Kerna Engkau adalah Tuhan Kami.. Pencipta Segala alam semesta..

The Hospital

It's been a week since I stepped in to work.. Some may question my absence. But to me, my granny's condition is far more important than my work. "Kerja boleh dicari, but my nenek, she's the one and only..tiada peganti."

Whilst in hospital, macam2 pengalaman dapat saya raih. Suatu pengalaman luar biasa. Nak kata family gathering pun ada..I get to see my aunt and uncle almost everyday as we take turn macam shift gitu to tend to my granny's needs.

I get to see new patients coming in as the recovered ones make their way home when they are discharged. Boleh dikatakan semua ahli keluarga pesakit is so darn friendly, macam kita semua dah kenal lama. Especially the daughter of the lady in bed 7. I suka tengok everytime the Philippino caretaker comes to take over a family member of the patient in bed 7. Dia punya kasih sayang terhadap madame dia tu ya ampun, sungguh mencuit hati. In fact I rasa semua ahli keluarga nenek di bed 7 tu begitu menyayangi nenek tu. Can still remember the words " Nayang! Apa kabar nenek hari ini"! playing in my ears.. Hahaha! I think the nenek is about 90+ years old. Start dari this experience, I asyik usik my nenek with the same layanan that the family potrayed while we were at the ward. Senyuman yang ku nanti nantikan dari my nenek terukir jua.. Happy rasa hati kecilku ini.. Apa kan tidak, the last few days have been an emotional ride for me, seeing the condition that my nenek was in. And yes, the Philippino caretaker can speak Malay so fluently that we almost thought she was a Malay or at least, an Indonesian.

I'm glad my family members semua united gitu jaga nenek semasa nenek sakit. Semua turun gelenggang.



Cuma satu kesedihan yang masih terselit di hati ini. There's this patient next to my nenek's bed. Whilst I was there for almost throughout the day, no one came to visit her. Once a lady came on National day and that was it. This nenek pun dalam linkungan 90 lebih. She would be lying down dalam separuh duduk and termenung. Termenung looking towards bed 7. I feel like I can understand what she is feeling. A sense of loneliness. My nenek's bed is always surrounded by us. Where else hers, it's either the nurse or the maid next to her bed who is caring for her madame. This maid is also a nice lady. She is always assisting this nenek every now and then.

Dimana ahli keluarganya? Anak anaknya?

Sekali nenek ni asked me whilst I was making small talks with her "Bila nak habis ni?". I speechless sekejap. She was referring to when she will be discharged. Not even once did I dare to ask her how many children she had or where they are. Seems like a sensitive question especially in this kind of circumstances. Up till now, terbayang2 raut wajah nenek yang cute ni. Still rememembered when the nurse kept on feeding her though she already made it clear she was full already. At last she screamed "Ahhhh!" baru the nurse stop. And we all terkekek2 ketawa. I can say telatah nenek ni somehow accompanied my nenek when we left for the day.

And bila kita nak balik, she ask "Bila jumpa lagi?

Haiz.. kesian nenek ni.. :..(

P.s: Kepada anak2 sekalian, tolonglah, walau jahat baik mana pun ibu bapa kita, biar sahaja Allah Taala yang membalasnya. Tanpa mereka, tiadalah kita di dunia ni. Jagalah orang tua kita bagai menatang minyak yang penuh, seperti mana susahnya mereka membesarkan kita sewaktu kita kecil hingga lah dewasa.

Ikhlas dari sanubari ini,

Hari Raya Kueh Recipes

Cornflake Macaroons


Ingredients
1 egg
100g castor sugar
1/8 tsp vanilla essence
1/4 tsp salt
180g honey-coated cornflakes, crushed
Sugar decorates
Small paper cups
Method
Preheat oven to 150°C. Line baking trays with non-stick parchment paper.

Beat egg, sugar, vanilla essence and salt until light and creamy. Gradually beat in crushed cornflakes to make a moist and crumbly mixture.

Drop a teaspoon of mixture (push through a small mould and pinch up with your fingers into a small pyramid) onto the lined baking trays. Top up the macaroons with sugar decorates.

Bake in preheated oven for 20 minutes or until just beginning to brown. Gently loosen macaroons with a spatula and transfer onto a wire rack to cool.

Cornflake Cookies


Ingredients
110g butter
110g castor sugar
1/2 tsp grated rind of lemon or orange
1/2 tsp vanilla essence
1 egg yolk
100g cornflakes, crushed lightly

Sift lightly:
125g self-raising flour
1 tbsp corn flour

Method
Cream butter, sugar and essence until the mixture turns light and fluffy. Beat in egg yolk and lemon rind. Fold in sifted flour and mix. Put mixture into the refrigerator to chill for half an hour until it turns slightly firm.

Drop teaspoonfuls of mixture onto the crushed cornflakes. Shape into balls and place on lightly-greased baking trays and bake in preheated oven at 170°C for 20—25 minutes or until lightly golden in colour. Cool on wire racks before storing in airtight containers.

Suji Cookies


Ingredients
250g ghee
1 teaspoon vanilla essence
500g plain flour
2 teaspoons bicarbonate soda (using this will give the cracking effect)
170g icing sugar
3/4 teaspoon fine salt

Method
1. Melt ghee over low heat or use the microwave oven for about 10-15secs and leave it to cool
2. Add vanilla essence to cooled ghee
3. Sift flour, bicarbonate soda, icing sugar and salt into mixing bowl
4. Pour ghee mixture in flour mixture and knead well to form a firm dough.
5. Preheat the oven to 180°C.
6. Roll dough into melt-in-your-mouth ball sizes and place on greased tray and bake for 25 - 30 minutes till cooked but not brown. The cookies should be white and crumbly in texture.

Suji Cookies Plain Version

Ingredients
200g ghee (minyak sapi laa..)
200g castor sugar
a pinch of salt

1 tspn of soda bicarbonate
350g flour
(sifted)

Method
With a wooden spatula, mix together ghee and sugar until creamy, add in the salt and mix again.

Add in the flour bit by bit until you get a soft and not sticking -to your hands consistency (agak leh terap laa...)

Roll the mixture approximately 1cm thick and cut the with a cookies cutter. If you don't have cookies cutter you can just cut the the dough into small even cubes.

Place the cookies on a greased tin and bake in the oven at 170'C for about 15 minutes.

- once the cookies are cooked, place it on a rack to let it cool before removing it into an air tight container.

Selamat Mencuba!

Muslimah Wedding

Been scouting around for muslimah wedding gowns.. Am so happy to have come across Princess Arabia!

The owner of these collection is a lady who is beautiful inside out.. Syukran jasil to her for her attentiveness, not forgetting her sister as well as Mom..

I have posted a few of her beautiful clothes, do visit her webpage on FB to have a look at more! And she has also just launched Eid jubah/jabiyas as well..

P.s: They have white gowns as well and mind u, their white gowns are unlike other malay wedding boutiques..it's design is comparible to those you find in western bridal boutiques..















Regards,