A month and 13 days. Seems like it was just yesterday. It's so surreal. Every conversation, facial expression, and her voice.. is crystal clear.
God I miss her badly.
Her favourite food, her cooking, her clothes, the socks from the hospital that she last wore and I never ever would want to wash it cos it still smelt of her..the videos in my phone, thumb drive where I disturbed her in the living room and watch her 'melatar'.. the ringing of the phone that is now pronounced dead.. she used to call me almost everyday..
I've lost a great listener.. companion.. I've lost half of my 'jiwa'.. It feels so empty at times.. No one can ever replace her in my Life.
Someone who took me when no one else would. Someone who provided me shelter almost throughout my life.. Someone who washed my clothes when I was still in school.. Cooked for me with her delicious meal.. shared my sorrow and happiness.. shared the same bed as me.. God.. this is so painful!
I have not done enough for her..
She didn't live to see my wedding.. something she has been asking and wanting to witness as far as I know..
I love her.. love her so much.. It hurts.. it feels like someone is carving a hole in my heart.. My head is throbbing..
I know she went.. knowing I will be well taken care of by the man who will be sharing my life in a matter of 33 days..
Saya sayang nenek.. teramatlah sangat.. Moga nenek bahagia disana.. Bebas dari segala seksa akhirat/kubur.. Kasihanilah nenekanda hamba Ya Allah! Tempatkan beliau dikalangan umatmu yg beriman.....
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